CkBYPOLARx's Xanga

Thursday, June 02, 2005

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 18:58:22 GMT

today was boring............. i went to school and did nothing cause i was tired i think i may fail damn!!!! well anyway i got my shoe steped on and fell and got up and jumped and screamed nigashriga lol;!!!! sooo today was weird lol and i was outside with my friend and we were saying randum stuff like crev nd crayola lol and he said " u see that yellow paper in the street thats wat u will look like when your 2 and 1/2" lol LMAO!!!

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

Wed, 01 Jun 2005 21:24:42 GMT

today was so fucking funny......... at gym we had a test and when we went to the locker room to put our pencils back i left class and waited for an hour in the b-room hahahahaha!!!!!LMAO but nothing else was cool all the rest of my day sucked cause it rained : (

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

Tue, 31 May 2005 21:55:39 GMT

today was ........... ok.. i went to school and i snuck out of tech ed. class to my friends class and thru a rolled up ball of piss and paper at him! lol LMAO..... hahaha... then i got to go home early cause i had a phychiatrist appointment......then i went to GAMESTOP and bought some war game........ but it was fun cause i killed ppl i played it for awhile then practiced my guitar then talked on aim and LORDS OF DOG TOWN is only 4 days away i need to go....o and i saw star wars: revenge of the sith........ 3 days ago............. bye ppl.....lol!

Monday, May 30, 2005

Mon, 30 May 2005 19:45:03 GMT

sry i havent been putting entrys.............. my mom dosent want me at the house so im over my dads alot scince friday and he has no computer so thats why today i just did nothin hahahaha

Thursday, May 26, 2005

Thu, 26 May 2005 21:25:24 GMT

Today was the school swim trip, butt guess what........ I DIDNT GET TO FUCKING GO!!!!! DAMNIT!!! i got in trouble 3 days before because i got 5 yellow tickets (tickets you get for running, being disrespectfull, gum, late) damn! i had to go to after school detention because of 5 tickets and if you get that you cant go on the trip.. so, i was stuck with this fat fuck and nobody to talk to in lunch and the other classes and crossword puzzles all damn day!!!!! so basically today sucked ass!!! I came home sk8 boarded andwent on aim.... I forgot to practicemy guitar but its only one day............ inside joke o0o lol not oOo lol soo thats the only funny thing oOo......................o0o..........o0o....

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

Wed, 25 May 2005 19:44:48 GMT

Bipolar Life

My life is shit, And so i will slit
i try my best to survive
And when i dream about mutalation,
it makes me wonder why
why don't i die.....

And its always the slut,
That makes me wanna cut
I wanna have a home to go to
And i wanna get a job but i sit
cause the monster inside me
wont let me do shit

So i Cut and Stain
and i try to loose the pain
I always wonder if im sane
Cause their's a lot of pain and strife
In a Bipolar Life.............

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

Wed, 25 May 2005 18:21:41 GMT

I stayed home from school today...I dont know why my mom just didnt wake me and i slept till 1:00 hahaha....... so it was kinda boring its rainy so i cant go out side and ive just been in all day on aim and online but there's no one to talk to so today ive been bored as hell all day....... Im going to go in my room and practice my guitar im still working on teaching my self its pretty hard when all you have is a guitar learning book and your guitar, but I will keep trying cause i cant find lessons.... O and im going to see lords of dog town soon on june 3 YAY!!! cant wait till next friday!!!!

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

Tue, 24 May 2005 20:14:21 GMT

today was boring........ I went to school and my hair was a mess..lol.... then after school i went outside rainy day though it sucked i was out about an hour playing soccor.....I talked on aim for a little bit then went upstairs in my room to write a song and played my guitar for an hour and a half and played some PS2 resident evil 1 and 3 and outbreak.... and now im hear...... and im so effin bored it sucks...........

Monday, May 23, 2005

Mon, 23 May 2005 23:34:03 GMT

Today was ok..... I had plans to fix my guitar, and go over my friends house for the day,... but my dad called at the last minute and said you have to come to your ants graduation ( my ant is 16 because my grandma had a kid when she was older so that got screwed up) and I had a fight and got in trouble and had to go.... it sucked but the good thing was, I had a fun time at cthe party playing ping pong with my dad and uncle and eating yummy burgers mmmmmmm...... and i got home played Resident Evil 4 ( great game) and beat it for the 2nd time YAY and went to sleep that was my day.......

Saturday, May 21, 2005

Sat, 21 May 2005 23:17:58 GMT

this is a poem i wrote about my friends depressing situation of love and torment...........................

SUICIDAL LOVE

I come to her house, to apoligize.
Where is she.
I cheak in the bathroom, after i opened the door.
She was lying in the tub,Covered in blood.
I didnt cry, I didnt scream
I got in with her, and held her tightly.

As I lie in the tub covered in blood.
I felt her soul pass through me..
Like a freezing knife peircing me with love.
And then came my first tear.
It fell to her eye.
The Ever Lasting sorrow...
Im gonna die.

We had a fight, the other night
i cant live with this in my head.

As i look down, to give her my last kiss,
She smiled and kissed me back
A request from the next life...
i now know she loved me back
i guess im forgivin.....

And now i can live on
remembering my first love
which will remain in my heart untill i die
As i wait, In a lonely sorrow
I will cry.......